September 30, 2010

Help!

Anyone else think of the Beatles upon reading this blog post title? Oh. Just me? Moving on then. . . :)

I couldn't sleep the other night. Wait. I can't ever sleep anymore. But it was really bad the other night. I laid awake for who knows how long and had a mental breakdown. I freaked out about the labor and delivery. I freaked out about the realization that when I leave the hospital in a month (give or take) I will no longer be pregnant, but I will have a baby that needs me. I freaked out that I am still in Washington and not in Oregon, close to my doctor and the hospital that I am pre-registered with. And the list goes on. It was like the panic attack of the century. Please, oh please, tell me I am not alone in this freak out. I hope every one of you who have had kids had this same freak out with your first. Or at least something similar. Maybe I should just admit myself to the psych ward now.

I woke up the next morning though, and suddenly, I had a dose of perspective and things just didn't seem so daunting. I'm still nervous, to be sure, but I am definitely not in melt-down mode. But then I did start thinking of some things that I really need to get ready in preparation for this little one to come. The first thing that I thought of was "the bag". You know, the bag with all your goodies that you take to the hospital. I have looked online for lists and things and I have gotten suggestions from people over the past few months, but with this ridiculous pregnant brain of mine, I can't remember what you have all said. So, please, give me your advice! What did you have that you were grateful you had with you at the hospital? Or what didn't you have that you wished you had? What the heck should I pack in my hospital bag?! :) Here's a list I got from Enfamil in my inbox the other day. Please, feel free to add to it. I need all the suggestions I can get!

# Shampoo, toothbrush, toothpaste, deodorant, hairbrush, cosmetics and other toiletries
# Comfortable PJs (bring a couple), slippers and a robe
# Video and still cameras
# Socks
# Pillows
# Playing cards, puzzles, magazines, books
# Laptop and your favorite DVDs
# Hard candies to suck on during labor
# Moisturizer
# Pencil, notepad and a watch for timing contractions
# Phone numbers for family and friends
# Nursing bra, if you plan to breastfeed
# Underwear (several pairs)
# Street clothes
# An outfit for the baby, including socks, onesie, diaper and hat
# Baby blanket
# Infant car seat

I thought this was a pretty good list, but I want your advice too. So hit me with the suggestions!

Oh, and by the way: I'm 36 weeks tomorrow. Holy. Cow.

September 20, 2010

34 Weeks

I hit my 34 week mark on Friday. It feels incredibly weird that in roughly 6 weeks (give or take) I will have a baby in my arms. In fact, it makes me just a tiny bit nervous. Or a lot nervous. In fact, if I start to over think it, then I almost go into panic mode. You think I'm kidding. I'm not. I realize I haven't posted many pictures on here from the pregnancy, so unless you are my friend on Facebook, or have seen me in live and living color, you haven't gotten to see this fantabulous belly of mine. So, I figured I may as well start from the very first prego picture I took and go from there. So here they are. Me throughout the pregnancy.

17.5 Weeks along

20 Weeks Along

22 Weeks Along

24 Weeks Along

26 Weeks Along

28 Weeks Along

30 Weeks Along

34 Weeks Along

I missed taking a 32 weeks picture. It was kind of a hectic time. We were in the process of making our temporary move back up here to Washington for the Timothy harvest. I figure my not taking a 32 week picture is pretty forgivable though. :)

I'm starting to feel more prepared, but I'm still plenty nervous. I can't wait to hold this baby and find out if it's a boy or a girl! My sister Tara just had her 20 week appointment today and she is having a boy! So I have her rooting for a boy and Megan rooting for a girl. :) We're just hoping for a healthy baby. I'll be sure to be better at posting pictures from now on and will resume my attitude of gratitude posts here in the next little while. Until next time!

September 16, 2010

I'd Like To File A Missing Person's Report...

Sex: Female
Age: 22 (almost 23)
Height: 5' 3"
Weight: Let's not go there. We'll just say: (VERY) LARGE WITH CHILD
Hair: Dark Brown
Eyes: Blue
Race: Caucasian (she's so white, she glows in the dark!)
Distinguishing features: Looks like she has a basketball shoved up her shirt, freckles, waddles as she walks...

If found, please call friends and family to alert where she has been for the past two weeks! Thanks!

I feel like I have been apologizing on here a lot lately. I seem to go in spurts where I am super good and diligent at blogging, and other times where there are other things that just take precedence over updating the blog. Sorry for my lack of consistency, I promise I'll get better! Especially when this kid gets here. Be prepared to be over loaded with pictures.

We've been in Pasco, Salem and Ellensburg for the past 2 weeks and are currently in Ellensburg. Not sure how much longer we will be here, but I will be sure to keep you all posted as to where we roam. Had I known that I was going to be here in Washington so close to my due date, I think I probably would have not transferred my care down to Salem, but oh well! What can ya do?

Things are going really well as far as the pregnancy goes. I will be 34 weeks tomorrow. (HOLY COW!!!) I can't sleep at night (I think that's Heavenly Father's way of preparing me for when the baby comes and I will never sleep anyway!) I pee all day and all night long and my hands and feet are starting to swell. I think that about covers all the late pregnancy wonderfulness. :) For the most part though, I feel really good. I am just getting anxious for this little one to get here!! I had a dream last night that we had a boy. That makes for 2 boy dreams and 2 girl dreams. It's anyone's guess now! I, however, am convinced it's a girl. You can all start making your bets now. Only 6 weeks to go!

Dallin is all done with the harvest in Oregon and is helping out up here in Washington with the last of the Timothy and what-not. He had a really successful summer down in Oregon and we feel so incredibly blessed because of that! Once he is done up here, we'll head back to Salem and he's going to start studying for his GMAT. He is hoping to have it taken and the results back in his hands by the time the early application process begins at Willamette, which is December. Then we'll cross our fingers and hope he gets into their MBA program for Fall of 2011.

Life for us is pretty crazy right now, but hey, it'd be boring any other way! I promise I will once again resume my attitude of gratitude posts and make it to the 40 days, 'cause I ain't no quitter. :) I won't promise you WHEN I'll resume those, just know that I will. :) For now, here are some pictures from our most recent trip back down to Salem. If you ever have a time when you are leisurely making your way down to Portland, take some pit stops. We stayed on the Washington side until we got to the Bridge of the Gods and we crossed over there to Oregon. Totally cool. Highly recommended. Then we stopped at this place off of the I-84 called the Vista House. It overlooks the Columbia River Gorge and on into Portland and is really quite breathtaking. We timed it just right and got there at sunset too, so it was amazing. Once again, leisurely making your way down to Portland is the best way to go. I highly recommend it. :)

On the way to Oregon, on the Washington side.

The road to Oregon.

View from the Vista House at Sunset looking at the lights of Portland.

Another view from the Vista House

September 7, 2010

Day 26: In Limbo

Once again, I apologize for my absence in the blogging world. I am sure you've all been DYING for my next post... Right. :) Anyhow, the last few days have been a little crazy. All day Friday I helped Dallin and Trent on the last fields that needed raking, baling and stacking and then Saturday I packed up and headed to Ellensburg. Dallin followed in the service truck a few hours later. Now we're in Pasco, where we're here to stay for a few weeks. Yes. Another temporary move. I know, we're insane. My life has no definite plans. All I know is I am going to have a kid in roughly 7 1/2 weeks. That is literally the only definite thing in our lives at this point. It makes for a good time, let me tell ya! I mean, really, who wants a predictable life? How boring would that be?? I guess I wouldn't really know, because my life has never been predictable. :) But seriously, this whole "in limbo" thing totally works for us, and we're just happy to be close to family and to have things to keep us busy.

I guess the thing that really has stuck out to me today is I am grateful to be where I am at this point in my life. And I am so grateful for who I am with. My journey wouldn't be nearly so good if it weren't for my wonderful husband standing beside me, supporting me in every way and working so hard. And I am grateful we have this crazy life. As insane as it sometimes gets, what with us running here and there and everywhere, I wouldn't trade it for anything. I love who I am and where I am at. And the best thing is, even though we don't know what the future holds for us, we know that where we're going is going to be the best place for us. It will be where we will grow the most and learn the most and be the best we can be. I am grateful for being "in limbo".

September 2, 2010

Day 25: A Letter

Dear Baby,

I just want to let you know how excited your daddy and I are for you to arrive! I'll be 32 weeks tomorrow, which means you're almost here! (At least it seems that way!) You've been moving a lot lately. You love to kick and somersault and, on occasion, hit my rib cage, which isn't so much fun. :)

I heard your heartbeat again yesterday at my doctors appointment. I love to hear your little heart. It may be the most beautiful sound I have ever heard. It made me think of the very first time I ever heard it. It was a magical moment that I will not soon forget. I remember how nervous I was. Last August, when I was in that same doctors office, I hadn't heard a heart beat and I was afraid that would be the case again. So when I first heard that beautiful sound, it was like no one else was in the room except your daddy and me. Time stood still for just a moment. I remember looking at him and relief flooding through me. Now I get to feel your movements and your hiccups and it's about all I can do to patiently await your arrival.

I want you to know how special you are. I can tell you are going to be one amazing little spirit, and I cannot wait to get to know you better throughout the years. I know we'll have our rough patches to work through, but always remember how much your momma loves you. You are the sunshine in mine and daddy's world. Keep moving, keep punching, keep hiccuping, we never tire of seeing and feeling it. We love you sweet baby and can't wait til October, when we'll finally get to meet you.

Love you always,

Mom