So you remember that one time I went to Disney World and acted like a little kid the entire time because I was loving my life and imagining myself in a princess costume?
Oh, and then that other time when we came back to the real world and we both started working and all the sudden I never saw my husband, threw myself a huge pity party and then had an amazingly inspired sister-in-law and moment of enlightenment and grew up again?
Oh but wait, then there was the other time when all my cousins started having their sweet little babies all at the same time?
Wait. Here’s the best. Remember when I was insane and said that I would be the surrogate mother of five “I have an endless supply of energy and you don’t! neener neener neener!” kids for 4 days??
Oh, you don’t remember me telling you about all those things? Hmmm. . . Funny. . .
Perhaps because I have taken a two month unintentional blogging hiatus? Perhaps? Yes. Perhaps.
So now, I am going to fill you in on all the happenings of our lives lately. Not that it’s been super exciting or adventurous, just super busy.
First of all, I have a HUGE Disney World post coming. It’s sure to be full of pictures and me blabbing on about how much I love Disney World and how I want to go back so I can feel like a little kid and a princess again and what-not. Eat your heart out.
Second of all, the whole busy-ness thing we got goin on here at the Calaway household is just unreal. Well, it hasn’t been horrible lately, but it was gettin kinda crazy there for a while. You see, the first cutting of Alfalfa this year was just awesome for Dallin. They said it was probably the biggest first cutting they have ever had! I was so happy to hear that. But, I was also thinking about how hard my life was because my husband was gone all the time. I went to bed by myself most nights, only to wake up alone again the next morning and I just wasn’t diggin it. Let me tell you, it was a lot harder than I thought it would be. I think I fooled myself into believing this summer would be even better (translation: easier) than last because we were married, so there wasn’t going to be a curfew issue or anything and we could just see each other whenever we wanted! I failed to add my job and having to get up at 6:00 every morning into the equation. When you are dating, you do crazy things. Am I right? Like driving 30 minutes out to a field in the middle of NO WHERE to say hello, talk for a couple minutes, kiss, say goodnight and drive BACK HOME another 30 MINUTES. Stupid? Yes. Infatuated? Yes. I still absolutely ADORE my husband, don’t get me wrong, but all the sudden, responsibility is on the brain and I keep thinking, “no, I need my sleep so I can function at work and not depend on diet dew to keep me awake!” Needless to say, we had a rough week where we just didn’t see each other at all. And I started to get lonely. I am grateful I have family around, but there is a void that only your husband can fill, ya know? He’s the one you just wanna talk to and laugh with and hang out with and what not. And he just wasn’t there to fill that void. Not that it was his fault (although I was getting stuck in the trap of blaming him) but I just wanted him to be here with me! So, I started being a total wimp and whining and complaining to myself and Heavenly Father, who I am sure was wanting to firmly shake me and say, “GROW UP!!” But, he listened. And after a night of crying myself to sleep and receiving a note from my husband the next evening, I realized that I needed to stop thinking in the “me tense” and start thinking in the “him tense”. ‘Cause really, when I start thinking in the “him tense” my life just starts making a whole lot more sense! And life is just easier!! SO much easier! And then, lo and behold, I got an email from this amazing sister-in-law of mine and I realized how not alone I was. I realized that I had people who knew exactly what I was going through. And I realized that I was gonna be just fine and I needed to put my big girl panties on and grow up. And I did. Thank goodness, right? :) Needless to say, he still works long hours, but I am ok with it. I just realize that when he’s here I need to take advantage of all the time we have together. Oh the lessons we make ourselves learn through our own stupidity!
Well, I think this is enough to bore you all, so I will continue my updates on the happenings of our life over the course of the next few days. Are you just dying of anticipation? I’m sure you are. I would be.