September 7, 2009

Lately

This post is going to be one of the harder posts I have had to write, so I think I'll just come right out and say it. I lost the baby. I went in to my first appointment, everything was fine, and then they wanted an ultrasound to see how far along I was. I went to get the ultrasound the next day and the doctor found no heartbeat. I cried. It was hard. But it's not so bad now. We're feeling a lot better about everything. And, like our amazing doctor said, at least we know we can get pregnant. And I also have decided there is absolutely no way I am ever giving natural birth. Holy smokes, bring on the epidural. Please. :)

Anyhow, on a much happier note. We did get to see Wicked in Seattle. Any of you who live close to the Seattle area, please do yourself a favor and go see it. Elpheba is amazing. Like insanely good. I was almost brought to tears when I saw the scene where she sings Defying Gravity. It was just that amazing. So, you all should go see it. Like right now. :) It plays til October 4th. So hurry!! More updates to come. Maybe I'll post a cute first day of school picture of Dallin on Wednesday. Wouldn't that be a treat? :)

9 comments:

Megan said...

I'm so sorry to hear this news. I can't even imagine how hard that would be to go through.

On a happier note - I'm glad you got to go see Wicked. I saw it in SF and LOVED it too. I am always amazed by the great voices people have when I go to shows like that (especially since I am NOT a good singer).

Tyler, Alexis and Karielle said...

Hey Ashley, I know you probably don't know this, but we lost our first baby too. I was 21 weeks along. I just want to let you know that if you need to talk or anything, I know what you're going through and I'm here if you need me. Okay? I'll send you my phone number on your facebook. Call me if you want to talk, or vent, or whatever alright?

Em and Ms said...

I'm so sorry Ashley. A miscarriage is definitely a hard thing to experience. I had one too, and it's okay to cry...lots. It will get better and easier over time. Lots of love for you guys.

I'm glad you had so much fun at Wicked!

PRP said...

So sorry Ashley. Just remember the Lord's timing in all of this...you'll be a mama exactly when HE needs you to be.

And Wicked? Isn't it the best? I'm taking Hannah in a few weeks. Can't wait!

Love you!

Stacia said...

Ashley, I am so sorry for your loss. I have found that sadness comes in waves and the waves seem to get softer with time. I lost my first pregnancy 4 years ago this weekend. Hold onto Dallin and keep praying, that's what helped me the most.

Take care.

tharker said...

I'm so sorry Ashley. There are no other words that I can say to ease the pain of what you've gone through. Just know that I love you and I'm thinking of you.

As for Wicked...I still get a bit teary eyed sometimes when I listen to "Defying Gravity". Just seeing it on stage and then picturing it again and again in my mind when hear the song...chills...every time.

Lisa said...

Ashley, my heart aches for you.

Sending sweet thoughts your way...

Blaine, Hillary & Colton said...

You two are in our thoughts and prayers every day--call anytime if you want to talk. We love ya!

Jer and Myaela said...

Aw, Ash, I'm sorry! That's gotta be so hard. I don't know what else to say other than I'll be prayin for you.