August 9, 2010

Day 13: Warrior Woman!

I had one of those moments in church yesterday. You know the moment when some bit of information (gospel principle) is shared with you and suddenly it dawns on you that you have a huge, enormous responsibility. One of those moments when you realize you have a lot of work to do and you feel slightly (read: completely) overwhelmed and inadequate. Yup, I had one of those moments. I was sitting in Marriage and Family Relations where we have been discussing children lately, and the topic of the armor of God got brought up.

Doctrine and Covenants 27: 15-18:

"Wherefore, lift up your hearts and rejoice, and gird up your loins, and take upon you my whole armor, that ye may be able to withstand the evil day, having done all, that ye may be able to stand. Stand, therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, having on the breastplate of righteousness, and your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace, which I have sent mine angels to commit unto you;
Taking the shield of faith wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked; And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of my Spirit, which I will pour out upon you, and my word which I reveal unto you, and be agreed as touching all things whatsoever ye ask of me, and be faithful until I come, and ye shall be caught up, that where I am ye shall be also."

We talked about the responsibility of parents in arming their children with the armor of God and that's when that overwhelming feeling hit. It's not like I didn't know that I needed to do that, but it just hit me particularly hard yesterday. I realized the awesome responsibility to teach my children what they need to know in order to battle against Satan. That's no small task. But I know I can do it. The reason I know is because my parents taught me how to put on the armor of God and how to ward off Satan. It's not going to be easy, oh no, not easy at all. And I won't pretend like it's going to be easy. I'm up to the challenge though, because I want my children to succeed and to make it back to their Heavenly Father. Just like I know my mom and dad want me to succeed and make it back. So, while I may be overwhelmed and intimidated and, quite frankly, shakin in my boots, I know I can do it. (With a lot of help from a much more capable source, of course).

1 comment:

tharker said...

I distinctly remember leaving church one afternoon when I was about 7 months pregnant with Hannah, and as soon as we got into the car I lost it. Spencer of course wondered what in the world was wrong with me. I said, "I just don't know if I can do this. There is SO much to teach this child, and where do I even begin? How do I ensure that she will be strong, and faithful in the gospel?" How, how, how...was pretty much my every thought.

I was so scared. The pressure of knowing that you are responsible for bringing back one of Heavenly Father's children to Him...that's huge!

Of course, by then it was a bit too late to turn back and decide I couldn't do it ;)

Thankfully, it hasn't been as scary as I thought it would be. It's a step by step process, little by little. And so many days, I wonder if what I'm doing is even getting through. I wonder if they're getting it? But then there are those times where one of my children does or says something, and I know they are getting it. Their testimonies are growing, and I am constantly in awe.

Trust in Heavenly Father, and pray individually for each of your children. He knows them best, and will help you lead them. wonder I haven't actually written my own posts lately. I seem to leave an entire post in the comment section of others' blogs ;)